Kowalski's mouth curved on one side. "Weird," he said. "Seeing--" He gestured with one hand, helplessly. "That."
"C'mere," Ray told him, holding out his own hand.
Kowalski did grin at that, a half-shy, ducked-head grin that was pure Kowalski even on Ray's face, and he came a few steps closer so he could kneel in front of Fraser. Fraser smiled at him, put one hand on the back of his neck and pulled him in to kiss him, too, while Ray watched. It was like seeing himself somehow superimposed over Kowalski, seeing both Kowalski and Fraser kissing and himself and Fraser kissing, all at once, Kowalski's hunger and Fraser's eager response, Fraser's thumb gliding slowly over Ray's neck. Ray found himself leaning closer without realizing it. Weird was definitely an understatement, and maybe he shouldn't be getting turned on by this, but then again, if he didn't get turned on by weird, he never would've been with either of these guys in the first place, so he figured maybe it was par for the course.
When Fraser and Kowalski pulled apart, Kowalski's eyes were wide, his mouth wet, and he was breathing hard. Fraser nudged him a little, turning him the slightest bit toward Ray.
"Hey," Kowalski said, looking up at Ray, mouth quirking again, "whaddaya say, Vecchio?" He winked. "I never pass up the opportunity to kiss a good-looking guy."
Ray rolled his eyes, but he laughed, and this was insane and they'd probably all be in years of therapy because of it, but right now, he was going to go with the flow. "Nice to know you're still a smartass, no matter whose face you're wearing."
"Funny," Kowalski said, "smartass seems to fit pretty well in here. Must already know the territory."
Fraser smiled at both of them, slid one hand onto Ray's knee and one hand on Kowalski's shoulder. Linking them. Grounding them. Just like he always had. Kowalski was still smiling, too, nervous but willing, and he knew what it was like to be Ray and then come back again, so all of a sudden Ray just figured, what the hell. He knew who he was, mostly, and the parts he couldn't figure out, well, that was why he had Fraser and Kowalski, right? To help him find his way back.
"OK," Ray said, "but if masturbation is a sin, I don't even want to think about how many Hail Marys I'm gonna have to say for this," and Kowalski laughed as Ray leaned forward and kissed him.
Re: Part II (I fail at snippets)
"C'mere," Ray told him, holding out his own hand.
Kowalski did grin at that, a half-shy, ducked-head grin that was pure Kowalski even on Ray's face, and he came a few steps closer so he could kneel in front of Fraser. Fraser smiled at him, put one hand on the back of his neck and pulled him in to kiss him, too, while Ray watched. It was like seeing himself somehow superimposed over Kowalski, seeing both Kowalski and Fraser kissing and himself and Fraser kissing, all at once, Kowalski's hunger and Fraser's eager response, Fraser's thumb gliding slowly over Ray's neck. Ray found himself leaning closer without realizing it. Weird was definitely an understatement, and maybe he shouldn't be getting turned on by this, but then again, if he didn't get turned on by weird, he never would've been with either of these guys in the first place, so he figured maybe it was par for the course.
When Fraser and Kowalski pulled apart, Kowalski's eyes were wide, his mouth wet, and he was breathing hard. Fraser nudged him a little, turning him the slightest bit toward Ray.
"Hey," Kowalski said, looking up at Ray, mouth quirking again, "whaddaya say, Vecchio?" He winked. "I never pass up the opportunity to kiss a good-looking guy."
Ray rolled his eyes, but he laughed, and this was insane and they'd probably all be in years of therapy because of it, but right now, he was going to go with the flow. "Nice to know you're still a smartass, no matter whose face you're wearing."
"Funny," Kowalski said, "smartass seems to fit pretty well in here. Must already know the territory."
Fraser smiled at both of them, slid one hand onto Ray's knee and one hand on Kowalski's shoulder. Linking them. Grounding them. Just like he always had. Kowalski was still smiling, too, nervous but willing, and he knew what it was like to be Ray and then come back again, so all of a sudden Ray just figured, what the hell. He knew who he was, mostly, and the parts he couldn't figure out, well, that was why he had Fraser and Kowalski, right? To help him find his way back.
"OK," Ray said, "but if masturbation is a sin, I don't even want to think about how many Hail Marys I'm gonna have to say for this," and Kowalski laughed as Ray leaned forward and kissed him.